Why I am awesome (and you are too!)

Why I am awesome (and you are too!)

I recently tried a written exercise from the lovely Molly Mahar at Stratejoy to write in 250 words or less why I am awesome.  I highly recommend that everyone give this a try.  I can hear some of the critical thoughts popping up – Why spend time to do this?  It sounds simple or frivolous or narcissistic.  I would suggest that it is quite the opposite of those things.

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Being able to honestly think about and put into words what is awesome about myself was not simple.  It required some very real introspection and evaluation of who I am and what I value… and then checking in with whether I am actually living my values most of the time.  I have learned a lot from the experience already and I have a feeling I am just beginning to unpack a portion of the lessons available from this practice.  I will tell you more about all the goodness I have been learning shortly.

The idea that me recognizing my own awesomeness (or you recognizing yours) is narcissistic is just not true.  When people are deeply self-focused in ways that are not helpful to themselves or the larger community it is not out of an abundance of self love and recognition of awesomeness.  Most times it is a lack of true self love and acceptance.  It is an external seeking of validation that can only come from within.  When I am aware of how awesome I am, I feel it deep down inside every little cell like sunshine is radiating out of me.  It is easy to see that when I feel that good, it is much easier for me to notice and appreciate what is awesome about other people – and that when I feel like a pile of $h!t it is much harder to see anything good about myself, others or anything… because I’m stuck in my own $h!t wearing $h!t colored glasses.

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So why sit in $h!t when you can get on the train to Awesometown in 250 words or less?  That length was the original stipulation for the assigned submission I was writing for, though you could go shorter or longer if you like.  I will share my process with you to help get you started on your own list or essay on why you are awesome!  I began by sitting in a quiet space and breathing (if you do better with music, more power to you!  I’m a quiet or I get distracted kinda gal) to get centered.  On paper with a pen (I feel like this part of actually writing it out is important, especially at the beginning), I began to write words – single words and groups of words – that express why I am awesome.  I intentionally omitted words about roles (who I am in relation to family members, by chosen profession, etc) and went more with qualities.  I wanted to look more at who I am underneath all the roles.

After a while, I started to think about how I would like to hear from other people about why they think I am awesome in order to get an outside perspective… so I asked my friends on Facebook to tell me why they think I’m awesome.  The idea of hitting “post” to that particular question made me a bit nervous, I have to admit.  It felt bold, daring and vulnerable to ask for feedback on why I am awesome.  I intentionally made my own list first so that whatever responses I got would not color my self-perception too strongly.  I was really interested to see if any common themes emerged, or if what I think is awesome about myself would be the same types of things that others find awesome about me.  The feedback was so kind and overwhelming!

As I watched my friends generously compliment me and shower me with love it felt good.  Like really good!  It’s that thing where even when you know people like you it still always feels good to hear it?  I got that same feeling when I refined my own written reasons of why I’m awesome.  Whether in our relationship with self or others, no one likes to feel invisible and taken for granted.  I know I love myself and think I’m awesome – and it’s still productive and good to remind myself that I do love me and precisely why.

I decided before I posted my ask, that anyone who took the time out of their day to help me out with this question would get a short letter or post from me telling them why I think they are awesome.  Then another remarkable thing happened.  I began posting what I think is awesome about many of my friends and family members.  Immediately, other friends jumped right in and continued listing things that they find awesome about that person.  There was a beautiful outpouring of love for that person.  It happened so easily and without any direct prompting that I began wondering what makes us hold all of this love and admiration inside?   Why did it require someone taking a chance to express it and then recognizing all we have to say it all comes tumbling out?  What if I made it a practice to tell myself that I love me and why?  What if I made it a practice to tell people around me that I love them and why?

This experience of giving and receiving gratitude and love made me remember a tradition that I participated in (and still happens) at my high school, Villa Maria Academy.  My high school experience was not perfect or idyllic (as I imagine many people may be able to relate), and yet it was still beautiful and marked with gorgeous ritual and tradition like Mary’s Day.  Mary’s Day began with breakfast, a mass with a coronation of Mary, and after mass when you returned to your homeroom, receiving letters from your friends about how much they love you and why you are special to them.  Mary’s day took a lot of preparation.  We would begin writing letters, often weeks in advance, and stay up late to try to get as many as possible completed before that morning.  I’m sure there was a whole crew responsible for sorting and distributing all of those letters, although I never gave that much thought at the time.  If you were a part of that crew, thank you so very much!

When we all came back from the Mary’s Day mass to our homeroom, there were piles of letters on everyone’s desk to read while we ate breakfast (and generally had a love-fest with all the people in our homeroom).  These letters were from friends, acquaintances, faculty and staff.  It was an opportunity to really share with people what you love and appreciate about them – and to receive that love from the people around you.  As a learning experience about connection, gratitude and how to both give and receive love – it was both fascinating and fabulous.

I invite you to try out whatever part of this reflection feels meaningful and accessible to you right now.  If you are game for some self-reflection about why you are awesome, please dive in!  I would love to hear about what you come up with.  Feel free to post words, phrases or your whole dang experience in the comments… be brave!  I double dog dare you to brag on yourself!

If exploring your awesomeness brings up resistance or negative self-talk, please let yourself feel the feelings, detach from those stories and then actually look at them… perhaps also look at where they come from and what feeds them.  Also, as with any thought, question if they are true.  If you aren’t familiar with The Work of Byron Katie, this can be a great place to start examining identification with thoughts and limiting beliefs.  In the event that everything isn’t all sparkles and unicorns right away that doesn’t mean that the exercise isn’t “working for you” or isn’t worthwhile.  It can be very helpful to identify ways that you are blocking yourself from owning how amazing you are – and then finding ways to shift those patterns.

The other half of this invitation is that after you have started with yourself (always start with you – you can’t serve from an empty cup, always put your own oxygen mask on first, yada yada yada – you get the picture), take this expression of love and gratitude to other people in your life.  When was the last time you wrote a love letter to your partner/parent/child/sibling/friend?  When was the last time you told the people you work with that you appreciate them and why you think they are fabulous?  The next time you think warmly about someone in your life, let them know.  Even better, let them know in specific detail about all of the ways they are amazing and how grateful you are to know them.  If we all engaged in these practices of giving and receiving love and gratitude more often, how would our lives and our world be different?

As always, please let me know if you give this experiment a try and how it goes in the comments.  I am excited to hear about how you are awesome and to see your bravery and radical self-love.

Love,

Martha

 

 

 

Comments

  1. In good faith, here is my own personal reflection on why I am awesome. I look forward to reading some of yours as well <3

    My name is Martha and I am awesome.

    I am funny. I can find humor and hope in the darkest of situations. I am deeply grounded. I am resilient and tenacious. I am incredibly strong. I do not sweat the small stuff.

    I am committed to continuing to grow and learn more about myself and the world around me. I am passionate and I follow my bliss. I am inquisitive, curious and creative. I love learning and sharing what I know with other interested, curious and passionate people!

    I am a fabulous active listener. I excel at connecting with people through conversations of real depth, playfulness fun and laughter. I am not afraid to be silly or to look like I don’t have all my shit together all the time… cause truth be told, I’m a real human, and I don’t actually have all my shit together all the time.

    I am awesome because I feel deeply and love and cry freely. I am learning to be more expressive and to appreciate the full range of human emotions, rather than self-censoring to leave only the socially acceptable ones.

    I am kind and loving. I have realized that the key to loving others well is to love myself first. That love is an action verb and my relationship with myself is one that I work on building every day. This is the foundation from which I build my ability to relate to and love others <3

  2. Thanks Martha for this wonderful exercise! I’m going to have to do it more often I think. And I love that you were spreading all the awesomeness with friends, making a ripple effect of appreciation! Here’s my ticket to Awesometown (for now, could always use a little more)…

    I am AWE-some. I’m awesome for my kind heart and hearty laugh. I’m awesome because I can’t cook well, but keep trying anyways (with some improvement I think). I’m awesome because I love to watch cat videos and don’t care who knows it. I’m especially awesome because I listen and hear what people are really saying. I’m awesome because I’m always trying to learn more, be more and get out of life as much experience of it as possible. I don’t always remember things (like birthdays or to take the cookies out of the oven – still improving on that though), but I remember to appreciate all the wonders in life my and that each moment is an opportunity for greatness. I’m awesome because I love and am loved. <3

    • Dr. Martha says:

      Hi Dacia! Thank you for sharing your thoughtful reply and for sharing your AWESOME! I feel you on the not always remembering things. :) I really love your last line, too.

      Thank you for being brave enough to brag on yourself! Your engagement is helping me to find some motivation to write a few more posts sometime soon. I have several topics I’m excited about and then the reality of time management with all the other projects sets in. Maybe it’s time for a writing get-away weekend…

      Thanks again, Dacia! <3 Martha

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